Today, I begin a three part series sharing a peek into my 2015 National Bible Bee Journey. If you've never heard of the Bible Bee, I encourage you to go HERE to find out more! I competed for five years, and my life was t.o.t.a.l.l.y changed through the Bible Bee and study of His Word.
The Bible Bee is something very near and dear to my heart, and so some of the things I will share are extremely special to me. Studying and competing in the 2015 NBB was one of the best experiences of my life, and the Lord taught me many beautiful things during that six month period.
Stay tuned for all three parts!
Six Days Away (You're reading this!)
No Matter What May Be the Test
Was It Really Worth It?
It was November 11th, 2015. Another day of studying for the Bible Bee was over, and Nationals was one day closer. The house was quiet as everyone else had gone to sleep. I sat on the edge of my bed, preparing to turn the light out. Many thoughts were running through my head, the main one being that Nationals was only 6 days away. That thought overwhelmed me. I felt so unprepared. Yes, I knew all my 879 memory verses, and I knew every little detail contained in John 7 through 12 by heart, and that long list of 100 or so Greek words, but I still felt inadequate. That upcoming test with 200 questions in it scared me. Really scared me. I had no earthly clue what that test would hold. Would the questions be easy? Hard? Beyond hard? I didn’t know. I did know, though, I wanted to do well on it. There were so many things I could still study…I just hoped they wouldn’t ask that on the test.
I rested my chin on my folded hands, and closed my eyes. “Dear Lord, I’m so nervous. This test is coming up, and I don’t feel ready. I’m sure the other contestants are doing something to be better prepared than I am. I don’t want to flunk! I want to do my best to Your glory. Lord, I have no idea what this test will hold. What if those 200 questions are so reworded I won’t understand what they are asking?!” I opened my eyes and stared at the carpet, thinking about how the questions may be. I told myself I didn’t need to worry about it, because all the other contestants would be taking the same exact test, but my effort to console myself didn’t help much.
Even though my brain was tired from reviewing my piles of verse cards and study notes, the worries which flashed through my head wouldn’t give it a break. I decided to pick up the hymnbook next to my bed and see if I could find any encouragement within its pages.
I passed familiar hymns such as It is Well with my Soul, and also some I didn’t know, slowly scanning the worn pages. Lord, please give me peace about this test. I’m over worrying about it, but I can’t help but be nervous!
Suddenly, a phrase jumped off the paper into my blue eyes.
“No matter what may be the test…”
What? I glanced up at the title, which I found familiar.
God Will Take Care Of You.
Oh, yes, I knew this song! But this time, this verse took on a whole new and deeper meaning to me as I read them.
Lean, weary one, upon His breast, God will take care of you.
Peace flooded around the nervousness in my heart as I read these words. My eyes dropped down to the refrain.
“Thank you, Jesus! No matter what may be the test, You will take care of me!” It was such a special moment…God giving me that hymn just when I needed it. Almost like He gave me a hug and whispered into my ear “Daughter, trust Me. I’ve got this.”
I proceeded to read the surrounding verses, and the hymn became even richer as I meditated on the words.
All you may need He will provide, God will take care of you; Nothing you ask will be denied, God will take care of you.
“Yes, of course, He can provide me with the answers. If I am to pass this test, it will be by His power. And look at what He’s provided to me so far. He’s given me the strength to study for the past six months, memorize all these verses, and given me insights into my study of John one through twelve…and He’s going to provide me with strength for the test.”
Oh, what encouragement I felt now. I grabbed my journal and opened its black and white flowery cover, flipping to the next blank page. Even though it was late, I just had to jot down what God had shown me that evening.
Was I still nervous? Oh yes. But did I need to fear? No. Because God would be with me, no matter the test. In Hebrews, He promised to never leave me or forsake me. And I know He keeps His word.
I flipped the light out and pulled the covers up to my chin. It was a bit chilly, it being November. Tomorrow was going to be another day to prepare for this test. Another day closer to Nationals. But I had a song on my lips for when I was nervous. And a God that was bigger than this mountainous test which loomed before me. He would take care of me.